Outward Appearances vs. Inside Reality

I heard something the other day that has really stuck with me.  Been Rolling it around in my head for days.  So I thought I would write about it.  This process of writing has really been an extraordinary process. As you read my posts it might seem like I’m telling Continue Reading

The Magnifying Mind Of The Alcoholic

That kind of reaction has been with me all my life.  It seems like I am really good at handling big huge catastrophes but let me watch a heartwarming commercial at Christmas time and I’m a puddle of tears.  It is really no big surprise to anyone that I have Continue Reading

Dealing With Grief In Recovery

Grief is one of the most difficult of emotions to encounter.  Grief is the normal and natural emotional reaction to loss or change of any kind. The Alcoholic mind wants to be in control at all times, in chaos or in comfort.  The Alcoholic/Addict see’s things in only black and Continue Reading

The Line In The Sand

The problem with hitting rock bottom is that the bottom is a long way down.  I was raised in a wonderful Christian home with oodles of morals and values.  You would think that it wouldn’t take me long to realize that my life was becoming more and more unmanageable.  It Continue Reading

Crossroads

Have you ever been at the crossroad? The spot where you have to decide to go this way or that way?  It’s a terrible place to be.  Especially if you are an Alcoholic/Addict.  The moment comes in every addicts life when they know the jig is up.  The clock has Continue Reading

Sobriety-The First Few Days

Getting sober is tough, staying sober is tougher.  I was able to get sober several times in my life but only able to stay sober for any length of time twice.  What’s that tell you? At the end of my drinking career it seemed that every day  I made a Continue Reading

Codependency & Alcoholism – Game On!

When I was in junior high I would walk home from school, throw my books on the table, grab a Ding Dong from wherever my mom had hidden them that day and flop onto the couch to watch the Flintstones.  This was my routine every day.  3:00 Flintstones, 3:30 Gilligan’s Continue Reading

Suffering From Codependency?

  If you have a loved one suffering from addiction I am writing this for you. Watching someone you love battle this disease is heartbreaking.  Going through the roller coaster of Addiction, recovery and then relapse over and over is unbearable.  It is devastating to witness the destructive impact this Continue Reading

Selfishness, The Root Of The Problem

I remember when I finally got sober after this last relapse,  I was staying with a woman from AA.  She had answered my call for help and picked me up at a sordid place and took me to a  12 step meeting.  I was homeless at the time and in Continue Reading

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